Ask Yourself the Hard Questions

In life you have to always remember to ask yourself the hard questions, because in truth you are the only one who is going to ask without any external motives and at the same time you may be the only one you are willing to tell the full truth... and even that is hard sometimes.

Even that takes time and sometimes you drag your feet even to tell yourself the truth.

Only you can know how to follow your own dreams.... but even you can get in your own way.... But some one has to do it and no one else will make your dreams come true for you.... and why should they... THEY ARE YOURS.

I am no exception, I lose track of my dreams, and I have to ask myself why I am getting up in the morning

And you know what.... I HATE THAT FEELING

I hate when I wake up and don't know why I am doing what I am doing. The good thing is the person I need to ask is right there in my own head.

When I find myself in these slumps I try, and sometimes it takes awhile, to get my courage up and ask myself "Would the younger version of myself be 100% proud of what I am doing today, of how I am feeling.... "

This helps me realize if I am in a slump or really slacking....

Sometimes its just a slump and I try to say HEY STOP BEING A NEGATIVE NANCY and find the positivity in the fact that I am following my dreams....

Other times I have to answer that hard question with an even harder truth... "you know what KC you are really slacking right now" 
That is when I have to evaluate why I am being ridiculous. 

In the big scheme of things life really isn't that hard. All you have to do is decide if what you are doing is making you happy and either adjust your attitude or adjust what you are doing. (sounds so easy right.... okay not really but listen)

A year ago this week I decided to change my life. One of the key things for me to remember even telling this story is the "I" in that statement. As easy, and sometimes mentally convenient as it would be to say otherwise that would be a lie.... But I decide to change my life and move across the country to be with the man I love.
The reality of it is, no one else made or ever could make that choice for me.... and knowing me, I would never let anyone....

In this last year, I have learned more about myself then I had ever imagined I would. To be completely honest these things are not always to my liking. But the important part is that I am learning and I am growing, and I want to continue doing so.


Two key things I have learned about myself is that I am not always as strong as I think I am and that is okay. But I have also learned that even in my weakest moments I am stronger then I could ever imagine. 
I have learned it is not the hard times that are the hardest.... the hardest is acknowledging when I am in a slump and that it is up to me to drag myself out, willingly or not.
Sometimes we are blessed in life to have people willing to help us but the truth is that if you are not willing to help yourself out no one else can either. I have also learned that sometimes you can trick yourself into thinking you are fine but just as easily you can trick yourself into thinking life is horrible. Tricked or not the reality is you create the world you live in and it is up to you to make yourself happy. The worst thing you can do is pretend to be one when you are actually the other. 


Sometime I start to think I am fine.... I am doing enough.... but what I really should ask myself is "is doing just enough who you want to be?" and for me the answer is no....  At the same time I have to recognize that me as I am is enough... as long as I am trying my best. It is when I am not try that is the definition of  my own success in my eyes.

What is the point of waking up in the morning if I am not going to try and make the best of my day and myself. Some days the definition of trying my best may be realizing I need to relax but that is very different then not caring if I continue to grow and learn.
I recommend always questioning yourself, it is up to you to hold yourself accountable, to ask the hard questions, and to help yourself learn and grow.