I know I have said it before but I will say it over and over again - I really am so thankful for the job that I have!
I think without it sometime I would get lost in my own crazy! Thankfully, in my job, I can be reminded to treat myself in a way that I hope, wish, dream, everyone of you can for yourself too. It is so easy to get caught up in our minds, our moods, and our self-defeating patterns. I am never shocked at how I can look at all of you and see you progress, your beauty and your ever enduring strength.
On days when you are hard on yourself I have to stop and think why can't they see what I see! Why can't they just see it!?
Sadly though... I DO UNDERSTAND THAT FEELING....
The feeling of not being enough.... what ever that enough is.
At some time or another I think everyone does. At some point in our lives we cannot see ourselves in the positive light that others do.
The real question is: Why are we so hard on ourselves. Why can't we always make the choice to see our strength, happiness, and growth. The real reason I am not exactly sure. But I would like to believe it is because:
with out the lows we can't feel the highs... But with that beings said...
Let's stop being such harsh critics.
Stop and remember our feelings are our own. WE HAVE CONTROL
And I for one am not exempt from this by any means. It is a lesson learn and relearn
Which is why I feel so lucky to have a job that shows me such beautiful strong people...
and we have to stop and think the people in our lives help us define who we are. So I must at very least be alright because I love the people in my life!
Strong, Smart, AMAZING people!
So here is my mission for all of us: Let's stop being negative, and start being positive! Just like we do with our muscles lets train our brains so that when some negative feelings start to bubble up we stop and say... hey! Wait a second! I don't really want to feel like this!
I know I always talk about being positive but I fall into the trap like anyone else and I just want to share this little personal process I went through recently....
In this picture, each about a year apart, from left to right I weigh about the same. On the right, You can see how ecstatic I was to finally weigh 120! I felt so sexy and cool and happy. Fast forward a year later at 118, my body is clearly stronger and healthier... But do you see that lip! I'm pouting and lets be honest its kinda ridiculous. I mean what the heck! I mean, I have been feeling down about my body image. Which then alters my attitude and personal interactions....CRAZY.... But once I stopped and compared these two pictures I realized that I was controlling these feelings. (This is one of the reasons I encourage my clients to take pictures) It's not just about the body weight. There are all different measurements of healthy, not just a number on a scale! Right now I need to do some mental training! And I am so glad I have wonderful people in my life that help me do so!
Which brings me to some stories I want to share with you!
I want to share with you the experience I get from my work!
Let me introduce to you two of my clients! Michelle and Kristin, both have had amazing journeys and are still on them! Both AMAZING MOMS and work harder then I could ever imagine. Just like anyone else they have their days where they are a little hard on themselves, but like I said at the start of this blog, my clients astonish me!
So I want to share a little bit about each and just how awesome I think they are, because I am so proud of them and their progress and it helps me stay motivated and keeps me in mental check!
Kristin comes with an active background and not only has seen lots of growth in the almost 2 years that she has been working with me physically but mentally as well. Lets be honest Kristin has always been a hott momma so though I see lots of physical changes as she gets stronger and stronger (which she doesn't mind... gotta love a girl who wants muscle) I see the more important change in her mentally. I love her smile and passion for being the best mother she can be! Since she was active through out her life Kristin's progress really began to show once she took some stress out of her life and added a healthy diet and healthy habits. Not that I couldn't have shown a great before and after picture of her physique, but I wanted to share this picture of her healthy and happy mental state. Look at this:
AMAZING RIGHT! I think she truly is glowing! Seeing Kristin and her progress motivates me every time I see her!
Kristin has been a great mom from the get go, but now seeing her new found energy and confidence I hope that she not only feels better but realized what a positive influence she is setting for her children. The picture on the right is more recent and most obviously you can see how much life she has in her eyes!
OMG there are sooo many things I could write.... I think I may have a slight friend crush on her.
Similarly and yet in very different ways I am motivated and constantly reminded by, another amazing mom. Michelle is so cool..... okay sorry, let me tell you a little story: Upon first meeting Michelle she intimidated me more then ever! Our first meeting was when I trained her and her daughter in a demo cardio class I was teaching. I gave the class the option of modifying a push up and she quickly informed me that in their house they don't do knee push-ups. I was like WOW, but as I got to know her I saw just as much sweetness as I did strength. I admire the strong example she makes for her kids. And to this day I have to admit I have never seen this woman give anything less then her best! She is by far one of the hardest workers I have ever met. And in everything she does, from taking care of her children to busting out burpees, I know that it's going to be done as best she can. Don't forget at the same time she is one of the sweetest and caring people in this world. She always finds a positive way to see things and can find the good in even the worst situation. Her honesty is something to be cherished.
Her strength and perseverance always astounds me. From marathons, Olympic triathlons, coaching, to getting her degree! Whenever she is tough on herself, all I see is strength!
Michelle's kids, as well as everyone who gets to know her, are lucky to see such a wonderful example of how you can be strong and gentle at the same time. When she is not training herself like crazy I hope she takes the time to step back and see just how far she has really come.
Not to say that I don't have to ever get all trainer like on these two, or they just might wait to start the next exercise, but I see how hard they are working and how much stronger they are becoming.
Which brings me back to what I was saying about my job being so wonderful. It always reminds me that if I can see the strength, growth and beauty in them when they may not, that I deserve to do the same for myself.
Just like I wish this for me, and them, I wish this for everyone! We are all strong, beautiful, and constantly growing, and the important part is that we love ourselves during the process.